Taking off the Mask – A Personal Testimony

I was brought up in a Christian home. I attended a Christian school for 13 years. I was saved at the age of 8, but didn’t take my personal relationship with my Savior seriously until later in my life.

As a teen, I was caught up in things that I shouldn’t have been. I pretended to be the good girl, but behind closed doors I wasn’t who I appeared to be. I carried the shame of my behavior for years. I knew I was not pleasing the Lord with my life.

I was married at the young age of 19, and within 3 years we had 3 children. I was overwhelmed with life and didn’t have time to think about my relationship with God. I was sad and depressed even though on the outside it seemed I had everything under control. I didn’t enjoy being a wife or a mom. My husband worked long hours and he didn’t realize how bad I was feeling. There were times I was tempted to walk out and just leave everything behind.

Thankfully at the age of 25, someone sent me a Bible in the mail. When I opened it, I began to weep. My heart was broken. All those guilty feelings washed over me again. I sat down and began to read those beautiful pages of that leather bound Bible. Right there in my kitchen, I rededicated my life to Christ. As I was praying, all those feelings of guilt and condemnation were wiped away. My Savior became my best friend that day.

I won’t lie and say that things were perfect from there on, but life did become easier with someone to help me. God was there when no one else was. He was my strength and my strong tower. He was the rock I could depend on no matter what was going on in our lives.

Since that day on my kitchen floor, God has blessed my husband and I with 4 more children. One of those little ones went to be with Jesus in June of 2006, but we will see him again. We have seen God work miracles through the passing of our son, and we are at peace.

Today I know that I no longer carry burdens alone. He is there with me, carrying me through the storms of life. I am so thankful for His mercy, grace and love and I want to share Him with everyone I meet. My goal in life is to serve Him until my last breath and to give Him glory with all I do and say. He is my all in all!