I am God’s beloved. Those words were not ones that I felt like I could say all of my life. I surrendered my life to Christ when I was fifteen years old. I hadn’t had a hard life, and I hadn’t done what the world would classify as “big sin” (there are not big sins- in God’s economy, it is all the same). I knew God loved me. I believed God loved me. I had seen evidence of it my whole life. Yet, I wouldn’t have said that I was God’s beloved.
Life continued to move forward, and time marched on. It wasn’t always beautiful – actually, it was downright ugly at times. I remember being a senior in high school and wondering why bad things happened. Sadly, it was only the tip of a the ice berg. Teachers who passed away, friends who were not true, a verbally and emotionally abusive boyfriend – and not feeling like I could get out, life just got hard. I knew God was walking with me. I could feel His presence in each step.
Zephaniah 3:17 says that God is there in my midst. In the midst of all those hard times, and many more to follow, God was there. He comforted me with His love more times than I can count.
He was also there in some of my great times. Times of sharing His truth with others – even to the uttermost parts of the World. Watching teenage girls surrender their hearts and all of them to the Lord. When I fell in love- and even the same day became a mom. Even in those moments, God was in my midst. He rejoiced over me with singing.
As I read the passages this week through my Good Morning Girls study, You Are Loved, I saw God’s intimate love for me in a new way. I knew it was there- but I felt it. I saw the evidence that had always been there, like the penned words of the song that He has sung over me.
I know the truth of the words I had heard – I am God’s Beloved.
Oh Lord, you are so good to me. You woo and pursue our hearts, and are right there in our midst- no matter what that midst might look like right now. Thank you for loving me – and comforting me with that love, and rejoicing over me with singing. Thank you for loving me so much – and being willing to show me till I see it. Till I understand it. And I know this is only the beginning.
Worshiping With My Life